Thursday, March 26, 2009
Monday, March 23, 2009
So Yeah....
Well it has ben FOREVER since I have written one of these, no one reads it anways...But, whatever, here goes nothing. lol
SO I have been gone now for 7 months and it feels like FOREVA! I miss everyone so much and can't wait to go home and visit in May! I still stand by my decision to leave and think back now and can't believe how long I let myself drown in a relationship! Now i'm just trying to find myself. I've made some changes since I left, I cut all my hair off, colored it bright red, pierced my lip, dropped 2 pant sizes, and am considering going to cosmetology school! Cutting my hair was VERY liberating! It's hard to describe, it's like when all the hair was gone so was that person I used to be! Now, i'm just trying to live everyday for me and not for someone else. Trying to do thinkgs because I want to do them and TRYING not care about what everyone else is saying about it!
I've met some cool people since I have been here and am enjoying all these new experiences! One person I met is this girl named Fiona, I swear this girl could be my younger sister! We look a lot a like and act alike a lot! She is gonna be moving to seattle next year and asked me to go with her. I am so in that place in my life now where i'm just up for anything and will be going wherever the wind takes me. So yes! I am moving to Seattle sometime next year and am looking forward to THAT new and exciting adventure!
My birthday is on Thursday, and I really wish it weren't! Not only do I feel like I am getting old, and yes I know 24 is not REALLY old but still, it's my first birthday without my friends and my mom! It feels weird and I don't like it! I'm just trying not to think about it but it's not workin out so well for meh! UGH!
Anyways, i'll try to update more often for you AVID blog readers! HAHA! Hope ya enjoy mah CRAZEH pic! lol
Monday, August 25, 2008
Changes!
So I am DEFINATELY in a different place than I was when I wrote my last blog. Lots to catch up on. So first are fore most Tom and I broke up about 3 weeks ago. It was a VERY hard decision that I had to make and it broke my heart to do it. I still love him very much but I have to start thinking about me and what I want now. So I moved into my moms for a while and I am moving to Arkansas on Thursday morning after my dentist appt. HAHA I know i'm weird going to the dentist right before I leave but I needs to get all my stuff done before I loose my insurance.
So I will be staying at my grandparents house until I can find a job and get an appartment. I hope it doesn't take me too long but we shall see. I'm going to miss everyone so much! But hey now you have an excuse to go on vacation to a place you've never been!!!! This next year will be full of new experiences, changes, and adventures and i'm really looking forward to it! Who knows maybe next year I will end up in Chicago with Angela!!!! lol
Wish me luck!
So I will be staying at my grandparents house until I can find a job and get an appartment. I hope it doesn't take me too long but we shall see. I'm going to miss everyone so much! But hey now you have an excuse to go on vacation to a place you've never been!!!! This next year will be full of new experiences, changes, and adventures and i'm really looking forward to it! Who knows maybe next year I will end up in Chicago with Angela!!!! lol
Wish me luck!
Friday, July 11, 2008
Finally...
So Tom got a job!!! I'm so excited! He starts on Monday, he'll be working with my brother and his Dad building and hanging huge signs. If everything goes well which it better we are going to try and move out by the beginning of October!!! I am so excited! We really needed this! We are gonna drive around the area we are looking for this weekend to get an idea of how much we are going to need to save to get into an apartment! Everyone please pray for us that all will go well and things will really start looking up for us!
The fourth of July was really fun! We stayed home at his parents house this year. They had their annual block party and they had a huge water balloon fight! There were over 100 people and there were THOUSANDS of water balloons! It was a blast! Although my fingers were sore from filling up over 300 water balloons! All in all it was a really great day!
So Angela has been gone a week today. I'm still sad! I still talk to her like every other day or so, so it's not a to bad but it sucks that i can't just say hey lets go to lunch or somthing! I miss her....
The fourth of July was really fun! We stayed home at his parents house this year. They had their annual block party and they had a huge water balloon fight! There were over 100 people and there were THOUSANDS of water balloons! It was a blast! Although my fingers were sore from filling up over 300 water balloons! All in all it was a really great day!
So Angela has been gone a week today. I'm still sad! I still talk to her like every other day or so, so it's not a to bad but it sucks that i can't just say hey lets go to lunch or somthing! I miss her....
Monday, June 30, 2008
Sun Burns and Hair cuts...
So this past weekend was fun. Friday and Saturday I did a little shopping for myself for the first time in a long time! I got some new clothes and some new shoes! Which is always a good thing! Then Saturday afternoon I tried to teach Tom how to swim since he never learned! HAHA! That was a task! He could not float to save his life! We worked on it forever and he would start to float a little and then he would sink. At least now he can semi doggie paddle! We were only out in the pool for about two hours and Tom and I both got pretty bad sunburns on our shoulders. So we didn't go back in on Sunday like we had originally planned on doing.
Sunday I went and got a hair cut! For the first time since OCTOBER!!!! I know it's CRAZY! But every time I would make an appointment I would have to cancel because something would come up or I would get a bill I forgot about and it just kept getting put off! I also haven't colored my hair since then and have decided that i wasn't going to color my hair any more! I'm pretty sure all my hair has grown back in, in my natural color and I have no more dye in it! Please pay no attention to my messy desk in the background...
Sunday I went and got a hair cut! For the first time since OCTOBER!!!! I know it's CRAZY! But every time I would make an appointment I would have to cancel because something would come up or I would get a bill I forgot about and it just kept getting put off! I also haven't colored my hair since then and have decided that i wasn't going to color my hair any more! I'm pretty sure all my hair has grown back in, in my natural color and I have no more dye in it! Please pay no attention to my messy desk in the background...
After I got my hair cut Tom and I went to the movies and saw Kung Fu Panda! Tom didn't want to see it but I did so he went for me! It was funny and really cute! I was looking for some of my friends to say Hi when I went to the movies but I didn't see any! There are so many new people there!
Anyways, all in all it was a good weekend! I really needed this!
Monday, June 23, 2008
This too shall pass...Right?
It's been a long weekend! First Friday night with the girls...Our last all together before Angela leaves us to move to Oregon! It makes me VERY sad! I know I will still be able to talk to her all the time but it's just going to be weird not having her close and being able to see each other when ever we wanted. We've been friends since we were 5 and she's my best friend so her leaving is really hard on me even if I don't show it. I know she's having a hard enough time with it without me adding to it and telling her how much I am truly going to miss her...
Then Saturday Angela and I went and got a storage unit together instead of keeping our own and it ended up saving us like 40 bucks a month!!!! That's like 3/4 a tank of gas! Woo hoo! So that was nice! Then that day i spent with my family and we all went to Daves Famous BBQ over in Long Beach and it was sooooooooo good!!!
Sunday Tom and I went to my parents house for a BBQ and we all went in the pool and it was fun, the my mom kicked my ass in Scrabble. It's ok though I killed her last time we played. Then I had to say goodbye to my grandparents because they are going back home to Arkansas. I wish i could go with them. I hate saying goodbye to them and I always cry, it's so hard.
I'm still getting over this sickness and it's driving me crazy! It's been over a week already and now Tom is getting it! Which totally sucks because when he gets what I have I usually get it back before the cycle is broken! ANNOYING!
Things are still CRAPPY on the home front and I am ready for some relief! Some things just seem like they are never going to get better and I keep think this has to pass sometime, right? It has just gone on for FAR to long and it needs to get better.
If you haven't heard, Tom and I have post poned our wedding...VERY SAD and ANNOYING! WE are going to try and have it on April 24, 2010 now. MONEY SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!
That is all for now!
Then Saturday Angela and I went and got a storage unit together instead of keeping our own and it ended up saving us like 40 bucks a month!!!! That's like 3/4 a tank of gas! Woo hoo! So that was nice! Then that day i spent with my family and we all went to Daves Famous BBQ over in Long Beach and it was sooooooooo good!!!
Sunday Tom and I went to my parents house for a BBQ and we all went in the pool and it was fun, the my mom kicked my ass in Scrabble. It's ok though I killed her last time we played. Then I had to say goodbye to my grandparents because they are going back home to Arkansas. I wish i could go with them. I hate saying goodbye to them and I always cry, it's so hard.
I'm still getting over this sickness and it's driving me crazy! It's been over a week already and now Tom is getting it! Which totally sucks because when he gets what I have I usually get it back before the cycle is broken! ANNOYING!
Things are still CRAPPY on the home front and I am ready for some relief! Some things just seem like they are never going to get better and I keep think this has to pass sometime, right? It has just gone on for FAR to long and it needs to get better.
If you haven't heard, Tom and I have post poned our wedding...VERY SAD and ANNOYING! WE are going to try and have it on April 24, 2010 now. MONEY SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!
That is all for now!
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Is it the 13th yet??!?!!?
Why can't it be NEXT thursday? I'm going to Arizona next week to see my grandparents and to watch some games at Spring Training. It's going to be fun and I can't wait. I miss my grandparents so much and i haven't seen them since May so it has been almost a year! I think this is the LONGEST I have EVER gone with out seeing them and i don't like it! I MISS THEM!!!!
Things are still crappy on the home front but honestly i'm tired of talking about it...I think by talking about it so much only makes it worse. It makes me dwell on it even more and it just reminds me how much I HATE being in this situation!
Tom is still looking for a job and it's taking forever! It seems like no one wants to hire him...If you know of a place that's hiring let me know...We need all the help we can get!!!!
So tonight is Rachels birthday and we are all going to PF Changs! I haven't been there in a REALLY long time. So I am excited. First Rachels birthday, then Airzona, then Shannon's birthday, then MY birthday! March is just a busy month! At least it will distract me!
Things are still crappy on the home front but honestly i'm tired of talking about it...I think by talking about it so much only makes it worse. It makes me dwell on it even more and it just reminds me how much I HATE being in this situation!
Tom is still looking for a job and it's taking forever! It seems like no one wants to hire him...If you know of a place that's hiring let me know...We need all the help we can get!!!!
So tonight is Rachels birthday and we are all going to PF Changs! I haven't been there in a REALLY long time. So I am excited. First Rachels birthday, then Airzona, then Shannon's birthday, then MY birthday! March is just a busy month! At least it will distract me!
Friday, February 29, 2008
Ummmm....Are you serious!?!?
Well thank goodness it's Friday! This week has gone so slowly it's not even funny! So no plans this weekend except going to Tom's grandmas on saturday for dinner for her birthday! IT sucks having NOOOO money! I just want to get out of the house...
The drama continues at home...I won't even go into it but some shit went down last night that schocked the hell out of me and has changed my view of certain people. I can't believe that people can be like that! Especially towards their own children. This has been one frustrating time and I am ready for the next phase in my life to get started. I don't know how much more I can take of this...
The drama continues at home...I won't even go into it but some shit went down last night that schocked the hell out of me and has changed my view of certain people. I can't believe that people can be like that! Especially towards their own children. This has been one frustrating time and I am ready for the next phase in my life to get started. I don't know how much more I can take of this...
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Another Day another dollar...
Well today is another day at work...BOO!!!
Too much drama at home!!! I don't even wanna go home! I guess I just have to take some advice from Tom's grandma "This too shall pass". I know that everything happens for a reason but I find myself wondering the significance of certain things that have been happening. One thing I just don't understand is why somethings seem so easy for other people and yet so hard for some. Is it just the apperance of it all or is it really that way? I don't know!
I wish people would stop lying and start be honest with themselves and truthful to their family! I guess they don't fully understand the consequences of their actions or they just don't care! I think it's safe to say they just don't care! If they did care they wouldn't be doing and saying the decietful things they are. The only thing good about going home is being with Tom and Lucy!
I can't wait for next year! Tom and I are going to get married and then try and get the heck out of California! I think we are gonna try and move to Ohio! I know everyone wants to know why Ohio?! But that's where we would be able to buy a house and have a family on a decent income! Besides Tom has some family out there and it will get us the hell away from here!
Too much drama at home!!! I don't even wanna go home! I guess I just have to take some advice from Tom's grandma "This too shall pass". I know that everything happens for a reason but I find myself wondering the significance of certain things that have been happening. One thing I just don't understand is why somethings seem so easy for other people and yet so hard for some. Is it just the apperance of it all or is it really that way? I don't know!
I wish people would stop lying and start be honest with themselves and truthful to their family! I guess they don't fully understand the consequences of their actions or they just don't care! I think it's safe to say they just don't care! If they did care they wouldn't be doing and saying the decietful things they are. The only thing good about going home is being with Tom and Lucy!
I can't wait for next year! Tom and I are going to get married and then try and get the heck out of California! I think we are gonna try and move to Ohio! I know everyone wants to know why Ohio?! But that's where we would be able to buy a house and have a family on a decent income! Besides Tom has some family out there and it will get us the hell away from here!
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